この気持ちはずっとずっと忘れないよ。

So I was watching K-ON! Movie during the plane ride back home from Hong Kong.. I got so many mixed feelings. If only life would be much simpler, like the band members in the anime. And then they played the song U&I, which got me thinking. The simple but cute lyrics struck my emotions, and along with the catchy tune, I found myself liking it so much, almost comparable to Fuwa Fuwa Time.

Maybe the lyrics are just apt, which made me fell in love with the song so much more.

There are so many things that I have taken for granted and I have simply not expressed my gratitude to the people around me enough, as well as being thankful for the things and people that I have in my life.

A lady was hogging the right lane on the escalator today. Instead of being my usual impatient self and being annoyed, I made a mental note and told myself that I’m grateful for having healthy legs, to be able to walk with great speed and not experience problems with my legs at this age.

During the short trip in HK, I had a short HTHT with HM during the night in Macau. I guess it opened up my mind a little, reinforced my thoughts and perspectives on certain issues in a relationship. I realised that at the end of the day, yes, I’m a tough nut to crack. I have a personality that’s hard to handle. I have tried to change that for years, and I simply can’t change certain views I have on a number of things.

Which is why, I chose to be extremely honest. I have let you in on my insecurities, on things that upset me or make me uncomfortable. I don’t want to bother with whether it makes me less attractive. If you can’t handle me for who I am, then it’s simply not going to be right to force things. At this stage, I guess it’s important that I know what I’m getting into. I can’t possibly tell myself that I can change just to fit into somebody else’s cookie mould.

I wouldn’t want to take anyone I care dearly for granted. I want to treasure and be thankful for every single happy moment we share and the tough times we went through together, which brought us to where we are today.

For a girl with bad results, I’m truly fortunate. My appeal for NTU failed, but I’m going to try to ring them up or something. My parents don’t owe me anything, they need not bring me with them to Europe or HK. I’m very lucky.  I need to count my blessings and let go of what’s not truly important in my life and be bugged by them.

I want you to be the one, because I believe you are different. Something special. Someone reliable.

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