Finally, I’m done with Queen In Hyun’s Man. I know, this is crazy. I should be studying but I really really couldn’t help it at all because I just had to know what was going on, all the way till the end. So yeah.. I finished the drama in 3 days. /guilty look/
So many thoughts running through my mind, especially since last night.
I feel so lucky, in so many ways, compared to Heejin.
1. I’m glad we’re not 300 years apart.
I’m so thankful for us to have met in this dimension, this place, and I wouldn’t change a thing. Though I can’t see you whenever I want to, I’m so lucky that there’s so many kinds of technology that would help us cope with the distance. I’m glad we’re living in a place that allows communication to be so instantaneous and personal. We don’t have to wait and wonder when will be the next time we’ll be able to talk because it’s so convenient for us to do so now, even though we’re miles and miles apart.
2. I’m glad I’ll know when’s the next time you’ll be back.
It would hurt so much to wait for someone’s return without knowing whether they’ll actually do so and come back safe. It’s great how we know roughly when would be the next time we would meet. And when I tell you to take care and stay safe, I mean it with every inch of my soul and heart. I felt like a silly girl thinking about the next time you’ll be leaving when you aren’t even back yet. I don’t know how I’ll react then but I’ll try to stay calm, and it’s still such a long way to go. I should be focusing my energies on what to do during that short summer. /deep breaths/
I’ve been sobbing so much while watching that show, like almost every single episode from midway through. Why didn’t anyone warn me about it? It’s seriously the worst, ever since Stairway to Heaven/It Started With a Kiss/Fated to Love You. I’ve never cried like this during a drama before, though I highly suspect PMS is playing a small role in it.I’ve been using up so much tissue that my bin is overflowing, as though I’m a guy who has been up to some sort of hanky-panky business for the past few nights.
While watching the show, I know I’m crying because I feel so truly upset. But when I think of it in relation to us, I know those are tears of joy because I realise how fortunate I am. I thank you for your presence, understanding, care, concern, sweetness, gentleness, cheesiness, voice, cuteness, shyness. Just… Everything. It’s too much I really can’t sum it up in words :’) You’re too good to be true, I must have done something good to meet you.
Every time we say goodbye, I wish we had one more kiss.
I’ll wait for you, I promise you, I will.